I want to thank all of you who took the time and made the effort to respond to the questions I posted here a few days past, when I inquired into your experience with T. I respect your personal journeys, and think of you all often when I am considering my body, my choices for my body, and wonder what other people have struggled with before me when facing these same choices. In some ways you folks are my family, and I really take your opinions seriously. I am so lucky you took the time to give those thoughts to me.
I think that I am giving myself one year to lose a few pounds (I am a healthy weight, it’s more of converting 5 lbs of fat into muscle, rather than losing weight, that is my desire) in order to have a good exercise routine in place before I start taking a hormone that is going to drive my appetite through the roof. Biologically I am a 34 year old female, and my metabolism is not that of a 14 year old boy.
I don’t feel a great deal of dysmorphic struggle, the kind that would put me on T now, like right now. I outlined the pros of it for me in my last post, but there are some real cons (liver trouble? acne? weight gain? loss and growth of hair?) that give me pause. For me, the risk of acquiring new health issues directly related to taking T are not worth the physical benefits of taking T.
So, for now, I am going to take a year to reflect with my therapist, talk to an endocrinologist, and work on getting this body into the kind of shape my current hormones allow for: I can build muscle, I can slim my waist a bit, all without T.
So someday, if down the road I decide to take it, I will know I did everything I could to attain good physical and psychological health before introducing additional hormones into my body.
Thanks again for your opinions and support.
Be nice to yourselves,
Your Pal Eli